Rachael's palace

BIRTHDAYS

2012-02-10T08:13:00.000-08:00

Today was a relatively good day :)

Nothing went wrong today and my mother is in a good mood so i am happy.

Went shopping for Lindsey, Claudia and Kieran's birthday prezzies, and for some other later birthdays as well, with Gisele, Charlene and Ai Ling :)

Didn't get Ki's present yet though :(

But it's okay because i know exactly what to get him just that i can't find it -.-

I was kinda stressed out. Well, i always stress out when i buy presents for people. And it's just so damn hard because i will always want to buy something for myself and i think today is the first time where i didn't end up buying something for myself. Saw a really cute bag i wanted from typo though. I hope there's a sale soon so i can go and buy it. If i go back and it's gone, i swear i will FLIP OUT or something.

lol jk. i'll just be kinda really sad.

Then my dad will go on and on about how i have more than enough bags and i won't die if i didn't buy it. Then i will probably start feeling guilty then i would suck it up and stop being such a baby about things. AHHAHAHAHAHHAHA

I think i got them things they'd like. Though i want to buy something more for Lindsey. I just didn't have the time :'(

I think i'll just give her a part 1 tomorrow and part 2 on her actual birthday :)

I like it when people like the things i give them. Makes me feel like the stressing out was worth it and i made someone happier which is good and makes everyone happy. you happy i happy everybaodee hapee. yay yay yay.

So yay for FRIDAY. and yay for partying over the weekends. and YAY for understanding Chemistry. WHOOHOOOOOOOOOO.

Goodnight

♥

oh on a random side note, i really really REALLY want this painted on a canvas so that i can put it up on my wall and put pins on the countries that i've been too. i will attempt to do so some day. hopefully it doesn't turn out shitty since i ain't no visual artist.

:)

2012-02-04T08:33:00.001-08:00

Had a fun time just now. Mimicking people taking photos. Photo bombing. Embarrassing ourselves by asking if the waiter if the water was free and Random dancing in the middle of nowhere. Feels good after having a really stressed week. Love my friends <3

Goodnight

R

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fucking rant. lol. k bye

2012-02-02T06:45:00.000-08:00

I swear i'm going to fucking fail again this year and be so fucking upset with myself.

I've been concentrating and like seriously doing hardcore revision or whatever you call it, for lit. FOR THE PAST 1.5 HOURS. and mind you, i NEVER EVER manage to concentrate for that long. IT'S A FUCKIGN HUGE ACHIEVEMENT TO ME. Sigh. and I didn't get THAT much out either. still have so much more to do. and it's just one subject. URGH. HOW THE FUCK DO PEOPLE DO SO WELL?! IS IT TUITION? cause if so, then well... that's just sad cause i was hoping i could make it on my own this year. with no tuition. ASDFGHJKLKJHGFDSDFGHJKLKJHGFDSASDFGHJKJHGFDSADFGH STRESSING THE FUCK OUT NOW. I'd not be blogging if i had a longer attention span. lol. ASDFGHJKBVCXGDFTGYHUJNHGJVFHCJGHKUJ

i feel so inadequate -.-
i can't understand shit that i learn in chemistry class.
i am so damn slow with my math.
i can't understand ANYTHING in music theory lessons.
i'm so terrible at my trombone playing.
and to top it off i feel uglier and uglier every single day thanks to my dad.

yay.

ok i just waster 10 minutes of my times. 10:44pm. time to get back to Macbeth shit. _|_
i should stop complaining and get shit done eh. heh. k.

♥
R

2012-02-01T04:57:00.000-08:00

I don't know why but i feel like shit today. well i felt like shit yesterday actually. today was better. till after school when i was walking home. i don't even know why. maybe i do. heh. So i'm stuffing my face with butter cookies and a cup of milk. lol. k.

GOSSIP GIRL :D

2012-01-30T06:42:00.000-08:00

OMG I'M GOING CRAZY TRYING TO COME UP WITH POSSIBLE STORY LINES FOR THE 100TH GOSSIP GIRL EPISODE
OMGOGMOGMOGMOGMGOMGOGMOGMOGMGOMG

ok i just want Chuck and Blair to get married, fuck, have a baby. AND RESTORE ORDER TO THE UPPER EAST SIDE. and then end the show soon. It's been going on for really way too long. I love it but i think it needs to end some time soon...
If Blair marries the Prince, I WILL NOT WATCH ANY MORE GOSSIP GIRL. IM SORRY.

THIS MUST NOT HAPPEN. BLAIR WARDOLF IS NOT MEANT TO BE WITH LOUIS OKAY. JUST. NO.

THIS BETTER NOT BE ONE OF THOSE THINGS CW DO JUST TO GIVE THE AUDIENCE HOPE WHEN ACTUALLY IT'S NOT EVEN IN THE MOVIE. SHE BETTER BE RUNNING TO CHUCK OKAY.

BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY, I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS MUSICAL NUMBER :D IT LOOKS SO CUTE :D

ASDFGHJKL CANNOT WAIT FOR GOSSIP GIRL TO AIR THE 100TH EPISODE

WHOOP WHOOP WHOOOOOOOP

hai

2012-01-27T05:25:00.000-08:00

hai :)

i've not blogged in ages. and i guess it's cause of school hours and work and mostly because i don't have much of a life to even blog about. Boring social life. sigh.

So... Last time i went out was last friday after school :) Had so much fun with them ♥ It feels like forever since i've hung out with them. :') And i guess with school being a bitch and shit, it'll probably be a nong nong nonnnng time till the next time too. :|

Went to Adelaide to celebrate CNY. well not really. but yeah. Caught up with Dillon and Cassie :) My dad kept telling his and my mom's friends about me going over. It's so embarrassing because it's not even confirmed! I DON'T WANT TO GO DAMMIT -.- I hate schooling in SOTA but i am not exactly very keen in going anywhere else either. SO TO ANYONE WHO WANTS ME GONE OFF SINGAPORE LAND, I AIN'T GOING ANYWHERE. SUCK IT UP. i actually really honestly wonder who wants me to leave. hmmmmm. O____o

School lasted for only 3 days this week but it was hell. I hate school. I don't like my class. It's more like i don't like the fact that i don't have anyone to talk to in class. I feel so asdfghjkl everyday. #FOREVERFUCKINGALONE

k. enough of my boring life. Go stalk someone more interesting.

kthxbye

♥

Happy Birthday Samuel. I really truly hope you had an amazing day. I hope you're doing well in school and in any other aspects of your life. Hope the lava lamp was nice enough for you.

can the story of ham boy and roti girl end with them being best friends who save the world together?

January, please be kind

2012-01-18T06:45:00.000-08:00

hi hi.

so school has been really really stressful :( But well it's all good :)

So updatessss

parents' anniversary dinner at one fullerton:

they wer really really nice. they gave us free dessert :p I LIKE PEOPLE WHO GIVE ME FREE DESSERT HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE.

nothing much happening now adays since school started. heh.

guess that's about it since i'm not really in the mood for any reflective kind of posts. lol

i want a cat and a unicorn.

kthxbye

♥

2012-01-13T03:30:00.001-08:00

first day of school

2012-01-03T05:06:00.000-08:00

LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL BEETCHEZZZZ

i survived. whoopwhoopwhoooop! :D
i've to work my ass of this year. i've alot to prove to alot of people, and most of all, myself. oh well.

anyway. i feel so terrible because i didn't get anyone anything. The only one i got something for was sam and he probably doesn't give two fucks about it. so yeah. -.- oh i got brina somehting too. but thaat's about it. omg-.- lol.

i was going to put a picture of me with the stuff i got but i'm lazy to eat a packet of muruku now and i don't wanna take out the extentions cause they look pretty in the packaging ... LOL.

so here

oh yeah. and notice the like circle shadows. those are caused by my uber cute light i asked my dad to buy for me :D

cute? cute??? ok nvm. not cute just say it's cute anyway. LOL

k time to stress over the IRE topics and shit.

khxbye

♥

2012

2012-01-01T07:01:00.000-08:00

new year, ~~new me~~ new house

sayonara upper changi road.

ni hao surrey road.

lol. happy new year beetchezzz

CHRISTMAS PLAY ♥

2011-12-26T06:21:00.000-08:00

Refer to the above and just look at the photos cause i'm a lazy bitch like that (Y)

kthxbye

♥

Merry Christmas ♥

2011-12-25T06:17:00.001-08:00

♥

2011-12-22T07:36:00.000-08:00

Life has been pretty boring lately.

hi

2011-12-18T02:02:00.000-08:00

Nothing interesting ever happens to me. So here comes a really boring post! yay.

So im going to rant about my bracelet. Let me start from the beginning.\

It was Isetan Private Sale on Friday and since we're moving to a new place to stay, mom decided to get new things for the house! sounds like a big yay.

BUT NO! IT'S A BIG NAY! I HATE SALES FOR ONE SUPER DUPER ANNOYING REASON:

THE CROWD!

Huge crowds stress the shit out of me and it really is very annoying. So i was squeezing my was through a sea of people to get to the things i wanted to buy. OH YES I MET MINYING WORKING AT THE CHILDREN'S CLOTHES SECTION! :D

anyway, so in the midst of getting my ass over to the bed linen section, I LOST MY BRACELET. F.M.L

THIS BRACELET WAS A ONE OF A KIND THAT I BOUGHT IN BRUSSELS. SO FML ON THIS. URGH. and the worst part is, THAT WAS THE FIRST TIME I'VE EVER WORN IT! ASDFGHJKLKJHGFDSADFGHJKLKJHGFDSADFGHJK! Even though it's not the cheapest thing on earth, what i'm more upset about is the fact i'd never find that bracelet EVER again. SO TO WHOEVER WHO GOT IT, I HOPE YOU TAKE DAMN GOOD CARE OF IT. it's kinda annoying how it can get hooked off my wrist that easily. I mean like if it dropped off, i would have heard or saw it. It probably got hooked off by someone else's shopping bag or the metal sides of the rack blablablablablabla. DEPRESSED LIL ME WAS BEING AN ANNOYING KID AND SULKING ABOUT THE LOSS OF MY NEW BRACELET.....

TILL, I SAW THE STEVE MADDEN SHOES I WANTED! :D AND THE BEST PART WAS THAT MY MOM SAW IT THE DAY BEFORE AND SHE WANTED TO BUY THEM FOR ME BUT WASN'T SURE IF SHE SHOULD.

So she got them for me :) And a guess bracelet that kinda matches the one i was wearing on friday. As in the guess necklace. IM A HAPPY KID. bought other stuff but these two were like the highlights. HEHE :P

ok. but seriously, my bracelet. WAAHHHH D''''''':

ok leasson learnt. never wear a bracelet/watch when going for a sale.

♥

ps im om nom nom noming my chocolates that i bought from brussels. damn good. and CUTE. i'm lazy to take a picture today though. heh.

Finally something eventful

2011-12-14T20:59:00.000-08:00

Hi gaiiizzz

finally something eventful happened! :)

Spent my day with venetia, MY HOE ♥

went to look at the A&F models and went around orchard, her friends came along so i met a new friend, Lubna.

This guy is adorable, But he's Lubna's :)

Mr "Big package"

ASDFGHJKL THIS ONE ♥

This guy asked me if i could take a polaroid and give it to him.

OF COURSE I SAID YES RIGHT?

heheheheheh THIS ONE IS MY FAVOURITE ONE♥

then we had dinner at Out of the pan (in raffles city) and went to church with her to rehearse for the Christmas Play! :)

Though i was like DEAD at the end of the day. BUT I HAD A CHOCOLATE CAKE AND TWO CUPS OF MILK THEN IT KEPT ME UP TILL 3AM. FML. AND I WOKE UP AT 9AM. I LIKE TO HAVE 10 HOURS OF SLEEP MIND YOU.

alright, that's it.

BYE

♥

Hi.

2011-12-10T07:13:00.001-08:00

heh.

2011-12-07T22:30:00.001-08:00

Hi.
so uh. this is a little bit embarrassing but i kinda started a personal travel diary after my KL trip... so uh yeah. I didn't want to post it here because i dont know i just felt kinda weird and awkward doing so. just didn't feel right. But yeah. anyway, i posted my recent holiday there too. I'm lazy to do a double post so if you feel like it, go read it there. :P
THANK YOU VERY MUCH
♥
R

BONJOUUR

2011-12-06T07:44:00.001-08:00

HI GAIZZZ

i'm back! :)

will blog more next time. I'm too lazy and busy these few days.

♥

PAPER MARKET ♥

2011-11-24T07:27:00.001-08:00

Hi people.

THIS POST IS DEDICATED TO MY FAVOURITE BOOB AND MY NUMBER ONE(and probably the only) STALKER, JIA WEN ♥

So i mentioned about the sale at Paper Market in my Previous Post right?

WELL I MADE MY WAY DOWN TO RAFFLES CITY TODAY BECAUSE I JUST HAD TO GET MY HANDS ON ALL THOSE MATERIALS ♥

Ok so mind the bad photo taking. And it's very messy and i got lazy to take pictures of everything. SO DEAL WITH IT.

So i ended up not buying 10 pieces of paper for $10. Instead i bought the Promotional Packages.

Bought 4 of the paper packaging ones. 2 were $11.90 and 2 were $19.90.

I THOUGHT ALL WERE $11.90 OMG D':

Front

BACK

And so i bought 4 of the plastic packaged sets. They were all $9.90 when you spend a min of $50. SO YAY ME! :D

ASDFGHJKL WHY IS THIS IN PORTRAIT!? >:(

I love these things. They are so pretty ♥

3 3D Roll-up Flowers

2 labels

4 Stamps

24 Pieces of paper and 4 irregular shaped ones.

ALL FOR ONLY $103!!! :D

OMG I THINK I'M IN HEAVEN NOW

JIAWEN, YOU SHOULD GO BUY TOO OMG >:D

in fact, EVERYONE SHOULD GO AND BUY! ASDFGHJK :D

okay. thanks for reading.

♥

Scrapbook ♥

2011-11-23T05:00:00.001-08:00

HI PEOPLE!
I FINALLY FINISHED MY NOT SO AMAZING SCRAPBOOK AFTER ALL THE PROCRASTINATION AND DISTRACTIONS!!

This one didn't turn out to be as pretty as i wanted it to be. And i lost a couple photos. And some was in a wrong format so i couldn't print them and i got lazy do a double trip to print them. So yeah...

And i scanned them all in. I REALISED I HAVE A DSLR AND I SHOULD HAVE MADE USE OF IT TO TAKE NICER PICTURES OF IT SO THAT IT'LL LOOK MORE DECENT. but once again, i got lazy. SO HELLO UGLY SCANNED PHOTOS. So i guess you guys won't be able to see all the 3D-ness... But heh.

So here it is :)

Cover.

I took like half an hour to pick the paper i should use and ended up just not pasting paper over it -_____- life of a girl.

Page 1

Page 2

Page 3

Page 4

Page 5

This one is sort of hanging.

And yes, i realise the "r" is missing. It dropped and i lost it. And yes, i got lazy to cut out a new one.

oh and i got the idea of putting two photos together from Jiawen.

Page 6

This one i by far the ugliest one i've done but heh. I'm lazy. :P

Page 7

LAST PAGE!

Yeah that's about it.
I'M JUST GLAD IT'S OVER! :D
Cause NOW I'M DESIGNING THE LUNCH BOX JIAWEN GAVE MEEEE :D

It's gonna be soooo sparkly >:)
It's on my table drying right now. CAN'T. WAIT. :D

Yeah so i guess this is my hobby which i would be using to occupy myself this holiday since i'm jobless..... It's a rather pricey hobby i would say :( All the pretty materials cost a bomb. And ONE piece of paper can cost up to $5.40...

OH OH OH OH OH BUT I JUST SAW A PROMOTION AT PAPER MARKET THIS AFTERNOON! $10 FOR 10 PIECES!
ASDFGHJKJHGFDSASDFGHJKJHGFDSDFGH!! If i don't go back before this promotion ends, SOMEBODY PLEASE JUST SHOOT ME.

K so, anybody want to buy me stuff for christmas. BIG. HINTS. TO. YOU. RIGHT. HERE.
hahahahahah i'm kidding :) no but seriously, i don't mind. Or actually just go scrapbook shopping with me. I like company. ;)

kk That's about the most interesting thing that happened to me since like forever-.-

kthxbye

♥
R

SCRAPBOOK ♥

2011-11-23T04:47:00.001-08:00

ASDFGHJKHGFHDGSRHU I FINISHED MY SCRAPBOOK ASDFGHJKJHGVFDGSRDHTFGJYJBVCHXDTFJYGH

photos soon.

DSFJGKHJLNBHGVCFJTYKGHULJNBGVHJKJNBHVJFYG

What am i up to?

2011-11-20T19:20:00.001-08:00

Hey peeps! :)

I'm so lazy to update right now. But this is what i've been doing last week.

SLACK SLACK SLACK PIANO SLACK SLACK SLACK SCRAPBOOK WITH JIAWEN LUNCH WITH KI AND JY SLACK SLACK SCRAPBOOK SOME MORE SLEEP.

I camwhore because i very very bored and i bought a new hair band. >:P

Jiawen and I with our very little progress. I look damn fat. But it's okay. I'll just never wear that outfit. EVER.

Oh yes, i went to the gym. For the first time since like more than 6 months! And my muscles are not really aching today. Only my stomach muscle (Name?). I attempted to do crunches on the super cook chair thing. AND OMG I DIED. I COULDN'T EVEN DO 10! just for the record, It's like harder than normal crunches. DON'T JUDGE ME AHHAHAHAHAHA. Yes. oh why oh why can't i look like this:

IF I LOOKED LIKE THIS. OH MAN IT'LL RAIN PIGS AND DONKEYS!

yup. i have a very interesting week :)
And yesterday was the last official catechism lesson.

But there is theology of the body next week. It's gonna be damn fun cracking all the sick jokes with my favourite pig :)

I'll really miss these people after Saturday :( Sad how we just got attached at the mid of the year and now we will be ending lessons so soon. sigh .... :(

LOVE YOU RETARDS! ♥

Getting my ass here this Sunday :)

I'm so excited!! Though London is abit too commercial. Glad i'll be going to slightly more exotic places in Brussels :) Bought 4 packs of Polaroid Films to use. I AM WAY TOO EXCITED RIGHT NOW WHEN I TALK ABOUT IT AHHAHAHAHAHAH

k bye

♥

PS IM ALMOST DONE WITH MY SCRAPBOOK SDFGHJKLKJHGFHTGYHUJNEWRVBERWNEWR OH THE JOYYYYY

PPS. MY DAD BOUGHT ME A CABONARA PIE FOR LUNCH TOMORROW SDFGHJKLJNEHFJWNBHWEJNVFHBFEWVNWER OH THE JOYYYY

procrastination

2011-11-20T06:08:00.001-08:00

omg im lazy to update. k i shall do so tomorrow. morning. before i head to town. kk.
bye

formspring.me

2011-11-14T03:57:00.001-08:00

Ask me questions about anything http://www.formspring.me/rachaelsia

I wanna fall in love with you again

2011-11-13T22:26:00.001-08:00

Hi guys!:)

wasting time in my mom's office today.
Currentl listening to This song :)
I ♥ JASON CASTRO! :))))

♥
R

RCS

2011-11-12T23:03:00.001-08:00

NI HAAAOOOOOOOOO!

ok so i realised i've not actually blogged about my dad's company dinner that was like dont know how many months ago by now. SO I SHALL JUST LET THE PICTURES DO THE TALKING SINCE A PICTURE SAYS A MILLION WORDS ;)

and yes, i am lazy to go on typing all the things that happened. heh.

ENJOY!

BINGO WITH ITEMS :)

FOLDING PAPER AIRPLANES! :)

THROWING PAPER AIRPLANES!

and obviously, our table didn't win -.-

THAT GAME WHERE YOU'RE TOLD HOW MANY BODY PARTS ARE ALLOWED ON THE FOOR. DAMN FUNNY GAME.

LUCKY DRAW WINNERS

THE NOT SO ENTERTAINING ENTERTAINER

A REALLY RETARDED GAME WHERE THE SPEAKER MADE PEOPLE PUT MONEY IN THIS GLASS JAR AND USED THAT AS A PRIZE FOR THE PERSON WHO GUESSED WHAT IS IN THE BOX -_______-

K. DONE. BYE

♥

In another life, i would make you stay

2011-11-11T21:55:00.001-08:00

I miss how happy i was with you. Till i got greedy.

11:11:11 11/11/11

2011-11-11T20:07:00.001-08:00

Because i can't feel for anyone the same way i felt for you.

2011-11-10T04:48:00.001-08:00

HI
IM RAPING THIS BOX OF MARSHMALLOW PEBBLES TONIGHT.
IM SO HAPPY I DIDNT CARE HOW SHITTY I LOOKED IN THE PHOTO I JUST HAD TO PUT A PICTURE OF IT.
TROLOLOLOLOLO
OKTHXBYE
OMNOMNOMNOM

♥
R

CONFIRMATION ♥

2011-11-06T23:16:00.000-08:00

Hey peeps! :)

Had my confirmation yesterday so as of last night, i am now

RACHAEL CELINE CHIARA SIA YELIN

I'm so happy! :)

So confirmation is receiving the holy spirit. I hope I'd grow towards the desired direction.

It was a good day. I was rushed and anxious for hours before the mass because of life's undesirable nature. BUT IM GLAD WE'RE ALL CONFIRMED NOW! :)

I swear i looked like i was getting married yesterday.

A virgin dress + Huge ass head piece + bouquets of flowers = *cue the wedding song*

Okay at least i can alter my dress now and cut it shorter! :)

Oh yes, and i was seriously the only rebel that came in pink shoes when everyone wore black or white ahhahahhahahahahahahahaha

Had dinner and celebrated Martin's birthday at Lauren's house! :)

It was fun :)

Going for dinner with my Godma tonight! ♥

YAY! WE'RE FINALLY CONFIRMED GUYS!!

Love for you people is as big as dinosaur poop ♥

confirmation

2011-11-05T07:25:00.000-07:00

hey guys1

my confirmation day is tomorrow!! :))

im so excited ♥
even though i look way too demure in my dress. it seriously screams "IM A VIRGIN AND POSSIBLY EVEN A NUN" but oh well confirmation isn't about looking good :)

So i had to dig for my baptism candle. Which meant i had to open my memory box.
and i found the ring K gave me and im debating on whether or not to wear it tomorrow because it kinda matches my dress. Confirmation is a big thing to me and well i guess it'll be nice to make me feel like he's there in a way...
And it still hurts looking through everything. And looking through my report card from primary school i saw how good a kid i was back then... what have i turned into when i entered SOTA... :(

Well i guess i should sleep soon!

♥
R

Fly upon the stars

2011-11-03T08:41:00.001-07:00

Second last day of school guys!!!! *yelps in joy*

alright. so yay. Watch the theatre performance and i it's not 11:39 pm and i decide i should blog. yes. good job thespians! ♥

anyway. i should go wash up and sleep.

♥
R

THIS. KID.

2011-11-01T07:13:00.000-07:00

I wasn't gonna blog today but i saw the most adorable kid in the awesomest halloween outfit!!!! The kid dressed as John O! GO CHECK IT OUT HERE

Like You're Pouring Salt In My Cuts

2011-10-31T07:36:00.000-07:00

Hi peeps.
I can't sleep. Guess it's all that sleeping i do everywhere i am

Well I had a terrible day today. Not so sure why. I tried to do the thing Dr Tan asked me to do. And they say "how can we help you?" BUT THAT'S A LIIIIIIEEE, THEY. DONT. all she said was go search under the school website there's a link that states blablablabla. well so i asked the nice librarian instead. But i had to sign up for some thingy and i wasn't sure what to do so i just gave up.
WILL TRY AGAIN TOMORROW BECAUSE I AM NOT GOING TO LET ANYONE TELL ME IM A FAILURE ANYMORE.

Okay that's about all that happened today. Other than that would be awkward eye contact with K.... heh. I miss him. alot. But it doesn't really mean much to tell myself that i do. But even if i tell him i do he doesn't care? so yes, post it on my blog cause im a loser like that (Y)

I really can't wait for the school holidays. Gonna scrapbook my days away cause i have no life like that. I want to go fencing but Daddy says it's too expensive. And horse riding is too dangerous -.- So i need to think of something physical to do in the holidays.... hmm I feel like going back to swimming every weekend? But i don't want to feel like an oddball being the old kid in an easier class or a loser in a better class. And to begin with, im not sure if Uncle Tony still coaches :| Ok im saying all these now but i'd probably end up just surfing the net the whole day -.- NO. I MUST NOT LET THIS HAPPEN *slaps self* :P

alright. I've nothing much to talk about. This post is not even blog worthy. But i've nothing to do so... TADA!

♥
R

Who do you think you are

2011-10-30T02:12:00.000-07:00

Hi guys! :)

I've pretty much migrated to Tumblr because i've nothing to actually blog about these few days.

It's been pretty... sad these few days. I see everyone doing well and I'm here failing my ass off in Music and almost having no where to go to. I can't believe i landed myself in this position. But i swear it's really unfair. But i can't complain about fairness because life is unfair. But the feeling really REALLY sucks. And i try not to dwell on it but i ran out of blank faces to give people when they ask me about results or whether or not i'm okay. So yes. i chose to rant on this redundant piece of crap called a blog -.- I just feel horrible and like a loser. I feel like i've left EVERYONE down. I've not done anything good this year other than do well for Trombone ABRSM exam (but for some reason only get 53% in SOTA) and improve in my Sciences. BUT somehow i did badly for the EOY. My marks dropped by 30 marks. It's depressing. Very. Depressing. And i keep trying to be little miss perfect and shit but hey guess what, apparently it's really difficult. And i hate how i can't really express how i feel so whenever a teacher asks me how they can help me i just go totally silent and stare into blank air. I don't want to come off as an attitude problem kid or weak. But guess that's me. -.-
It sucks to have no one who understands or even anyone who'd make me feel better just a slight bit.
Whenever i am at a really low point, it's also when i miss kenneth the most. I don't know what the relation is but somehow i just do. -.-
Well, i've next year to redeem myself. Hopefully do well enough to get myself into places i can do better in. Because SOTA is probably not an ideal place for me anymore. But i picked this path, I have to finish the race and do well at it. sigh. LIFE. PAINS. hahahaha

anyhoo, on to a happier note! :)

Sabrina's birthday party yesterday ♥

I had fun! :) But a lil left out because majority of them were Dancers. Well actually all. Because Alina left at 730. heh. But it was still fun :)

SEE YOU PEOPLE NEXT TIME WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT!

♥

IM BACK FROM CHINA!

2011-10-26T07:13:00.000-07:00

Hair "chopstick" from China! ♥

Hi peeps! I'm back from the school trip to CHINA!! :)

Got closer to Sam and the other 3 gurlzzz ♥

It was a fun and nice trip. The toilets were freaking flushable. how amazing is that!??!

I didn't bring my camera nor Polaroid to China so no photos to upload about China. So that's the most China photo i have. I got it for 30 Yuan!:)) It's super duper pretty.

Mind my ugly room and my pajamas looking shirt. It's not. and it's actually super comfortable.

I gained 1KG in China D:

And Sabrina's birthday is this Saturday and it's a pool party.

I. NEED. TO. LOSE. WEIGHT. OR. I. CAN'T. WEAR. MY. NEW. SWIMSUIT. URGH.

4 days. I CAN DO THIS.

Anyway, i can't wait to get back my terrible results tomorrow. I failed the most important subject. Music.

It just gets better everyday doesn't it.

Shall not talk about it or i'd get all sad.

♥

Saturday

2011-10-15T07:38:00.000-07:00

HI GUYS

I QUEUED TO GET INTO A QUEUE TODAY. like what in the actual fuck?

It was to get into some sale at Suntec.

Then i headed to BEN&JERRY'S CHUNK FEST♥

Met Claudia and her momsie there.

IT WAS SO BLOODY HOT! and then it rained. So it was like a double whammy. NOT. COOL.

Tried the "Americone dream" flavour. IT WAS SOOOOO SWEET :O

Anyway. GOING TO CHINA TOMORROW MORNING. GONNA MAKE FRIENDS WITH YAKS AND CHINA BOYZ.

Okay. BYE!

♥

Time Flies

2011-10-13T21:59:00.000-07:00

So last night i went to the old Goodman campus for dinner at this new restaurant that had opened about 3 months ago. The restaurant is located where the canteen used to be located. It's a rather classy. It's a nice place. I sat at a table next to this mediacorp interviewer lady. Think her name is Deborah? Anyway. Just pictures of the meal cause im lazy to elaborate. The food was pretty amazing.

So after dinner i went to walk around the school. And i saw this. And i died inside...

And the door that we used to beg the uncle to open after school! Good times. And the bus stop where we all took bus 14 to City Hall. And when we got scolded for being noisy and had to apologise to the whole school. The times where we all gathered at Kallang Macs and made a mess. When we bought happy meals and stuffed fries in my hair. And came back to school to rehearse for the campfire.

And i tried to find the hand and footprints Elijah And Jakin left at the stairs area and they're gone... It was kind of sad. And the "hiding spot" has been covered up -.- And the names of the music rooms have been taken down. God there's just so much that happened for me to state. Well basically it was like alot of flashbacks happened last night. And i really didn't have anyone to talk to about it. So i just kept thinking about it to myself. And some of those thoughts really hurt... It actually still hurts.

And the moon just HAD to be so huge

Time really passes too quickly. 2011 is ending soon....
Yeah okay i don't really want to continue. Everyone's all overseas at OIP and stuff now. except the Copenhagen and Yunnan people. So yeah...

♥
R

I keep thinking you're just going to randomly text me and tell me all the feelings you've been hiding. The same ones i have. That you remember all the cute things i did, all the stupid stuff i said. That you'll just text me and tell me that i'm the one you keep thinking about. Just anything that would still give me the slightest bit of hope

2011-10-13T21:02:00.000-07:00

'Cause you can't bandage the damage, You never really can fix a heart

2011-10-13T20:11:00.000-07:00

BAMBI ♥

2011-10-13T08:19:00.000-07:00

OMG GAAIIIIIZZZZZZ

I was clearing my cupboard, AND I FOUND MY BAMBI CD.

OMG IM A HAPPY KID :D

So guess what im gonna be doing tonight?
yeah, WATCHING BAMBI, BEETCHEZZZZZZ

oh yes and i do know this is like a double post cause i posted this picture on my tumblr too but it;s cause my blogger wasn't working just now so i used Tumblr to share my joy with the non existent readers i've got :D HAHAHAH

K BYE

♥
R

HOLIDAY ♥

2011-10-13T00:54:00.000-07:00

YAY NO SCHOOL!

but im pretty much just rotting at home -_____-

My day goes like this, (try singing it to some funky tune it'd be more interesting...)

WAKE UP. EAT. TUMBLR. FACEBOOK. TWITTER. HOTMAIL. SOTA MUSIC WIKISPACES. TUMBLR. EAT. WATCH KEEPING UP WITH THE KARDASHIANS. TUMBLR. FACEBOOK. TWITTER. EAT. SLEEP.

lol ok it's not THAT bad. But it's pretty much just really boring... you get my drift.

So anyway i tried this quiz thing on This Website that concludes what i am. And this was what i got. I can't tell if it's accurate or not. I think it is to a certain extend. I don't know. You tell me. Go give it a shot! SEE WHAT YOU BITCHEZ GET ;)

And here's something that everyone should go check out.
EVERYONE NEEDS TO GO VISIT THIS WEBSITE!
You can thank me later ;)

Im flying off the Yunnan on Sunday morning. 8:30am. FML much? sigh. I hope it'll be a good trip! :)

Enjoy the holidays peeps. For those still having exams, IT'LL BE OVER SOON! :)

♥
R

2011-10-09T21:21:00.001-07:00

Feelings. just a bitch

2011-10-09T08:50:00.000-07:00

Im back from KL! :)

It was a pretty terrible trip. Found a letter from Sam in my bag. So yeah kinda didn't get my mind off things the whole trip. But shopping was pretty good! :)

Shall post more tomorrow. Meahwhile, listen to this! :)

My heart's a stereo it only plays for you ♥

2011-10-06T07:27:00.000-07:00

Currently listening the amazing Anna Marie Lannitelli's cover of Stero Hearts. LOVE. AVERY. ♥

So today was the last paper! HELLYEAHMAHBEECHEZZZZZ IM FREEEEE >:)

Not exactly the best way to end the exams today...
Don't know how to feel. It's just.... Fuck it.

Thank God im flying off to KL tomorrow.
but at 7am. so fml cause of early flights.
ok i shouldn't complain.

I just like to run away from my problems all the time.
And i think it's okay. I think it works.

♥
R

Carelessness

2011-10-04T04:14:00.000-07:00

Hi guys.

Im in the Multi purpose room of the Condo i live at....

Yeah. I forgot my keys -________-

AND THERE'S CHEMISTRY PAPER TOMORROW!

FML.

But i did a revision paper that i photocopied from JiaWen. Thank God for that. It's the only thing i brought :| And now im free with nothing to do other than to take a picture of myself awkwardly because there is a boy having tuition in the room at the moment. -_____-

Notice how on the right side (left if facing the photo) of my face, the eye bag is like ASDFGHJKL and on the other, it's not exactly there... I am seriously just overall not proportional i swear. Or maybe my muscles flex at funny rates.

Oh. yes. IHSS exam today. It went pretty good. other than the fact that the stuff i prepared the most on didn't come out ,,|,,

Oh and if anyone caught me lik uh crying. it's because i was freaking out because i didn't write one question on each paper. Yes. Im a cry baby over such stupid things. I guess it was a spur of the moment freak out.... Thought they meant it as Each SECTION. ASDFGHJKL.

AND IT'S THE OPVL SECTION! THAT'S THE FREAKING SECTION THAT I CAN SCORE IN! AND IT'S SEVEN MARKS. S.E.V.E.N.

I hope the teachers are not heartless and still mark my question... I wrote like 4/5 of a page for that ONE question. sigh...

And i worked super hard for this paper. Really.

I just needed to prove to myself that i won't fail IHSS just because it's an open book.

And i need it to pull my total average mark higher!

I know i wont fail overall for IHSS even if i fail this exam, BUT I JUST LIKE TO HAVE A NICER GRADE. i mean, WHO DOESN'T!?

ok i have nothing to say. And im only blogging because there isn't anything to do.
SHALL GO TUMBLR NOW!

Meanwhile, you guys better watch this:

♥
R

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2011-10-04T02:39:00.001-07:00

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Eremophobia

2011-10-03T07:51:00.000-07:00

I really feel so alone. I don't know who to turn to. This year has been a very very lonely year for me. Surrounded by people but no one seems to stay. Either that or they only want something from me. Maybe i've done them wrong? I don't know. I wish they'd tell me when I'm wrong. So maybe I can explain my actions? I don't know. I guess I'm the kind that cannot handle it when I know someone hates me or is angry at me for some reason that I didn't intentionally cause... I really can't stand knowing that. I try to be little miss perfect as much as I can. But guess I'm still human. But it just seems like i have no one left that's there sometimes.

I pathetically cry to myself when im hurt because there isn't anyone else that i know would care. Then i feel worst about myself knowing i've got no one to turn to. no. one.

Well Thank God for Jia Wen and Lyn. Really. I don't know what i'd do without them. Only they've kinda stayed with me. But even so. I still can't seem to be able to feel comfortable going to either of them with my stupid problems that probably would bore the shit out of them.

I just hope that one day i'd get consistency, someone who stays, Understands and mostly doesn't judge.

Cause half the time. I feel fucking judge by many people. Like hello, you know my name. but not my part of the story. get to know it first then judge me from that. see if it's the same.

Ok i sound whiney and annoying now. -.-

ok. nevermind.

GOODLUCK FOR THE EXAMS PEOPLE! LAST FEW DAYS!!! >:)

♥

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2011-10-02T00:23:00.001-07:00

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WHO ARE YOU

2011-10-01T01:36:00.000-07:00

Hey guys! :)

Haven't bogged in ages. well not really. but yeah.
I've kinda migrated to Tumblr for abit you see. hehe :P

anyway. second day of exam. DONE. AND. OVER. WITH.

Music essay is due tonight and im currently attempting to cram it but im getting distracted by everything else :(

Alright. that's all i've to say. -.-

♥
R

PS, why are Russian people reading my blog!? O____O

Life

2011-09-26T05:45:00.001-07:00

Help. Please.

2011-09-25T07:25:00.000-07:00

I know this isn't a very appropriate time to think about this.
But what to do?
Things always happen at such fucked up timings.
Or maybe it's because i tend to push it away and hope it disappears but it doesnt and it piles up like my homework and one day it's just like "BITCH, IVE ENOUGH OF YOUR SHIT. FIX YOUR FUCKING PROBLEMS"

on a side note, The fozen yoghurt daddy bought for me sucks :(
and it cost him 5 bucks... NOT. COOL.
It's called "ProllyPerry"
so if you see this store, STONE. THEM. lol jk. dont.
I need to teach my dad how to buy the right things. for the right price. -.-

♥
R

Guesses anyone?

2011-09-24T07:24:00.000-07:00

I've no time to update :(

BUT here's a picture to give a heads up on what im going to post about soon!
Anybody have an idea where this is? ;)

♥
R

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2011-09-17T05:48:00.001-07:00

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Hedley ♥

2011-09-16T06:25:00.000-07:00

I shall not blog about the upcoming exams or my life for today.
I shall blog about the one and only HEDLEY! :)

I saw their "ambassador" tasks on their website! I found it really interesting.

This is the new promotional poster for Hedley's new album! Go download it HERE and go post it everywhere. yes, it is a demand. ;)

Their new single Invinsible is really really amazing and inspiring. NOT. EXAGGERATING. AT. ALL. Go listen to it HERE! :) You'll love it. If you dont, GO DIE IN A HOLE.

The chorus is my favourite part :')

"I've come a long, long way
Made a lot of mistakes
But I'm breathin’, breathin’
That's right and I mean it, mean it
This time I'm a little run down
I've been living out loud
I could beat it, beat it
That's right, cause I'm feelin’, feelin’
Invincible"

I listened to this song the night when i felt like Giving Up :)
Made me smile for a while.

So go listen to it. EASES OFF THE STRESS OF THE UPCOMING EXAMS!

♥
R

You'll get candy if you go around telling people how amazing the song is.

Sparks Fly

2011-09-14T07:45:00.000-07:00

Drop everything now, meet me in the pouring rain.

I'm no longer a fan, BUT i suddenly miss my lame Taylor Swift days. AHAHAHHAHAHAHA Dont judge ok.

Hey guys! :)

I hit 1900 page views!! and just a few days ago i reached my 1900th tweet!!
THIS. IS. COOL.
i know 1900 is probably not alot compared o some other people's blogs but it's a good thing to me. i dont really like to many people reading this space...

anyhoo. exams are in 2 weeks time... im scared. First exam on the 29th Sep. Arc, Chinese and Instrumental Studies.

I got really really really upset over my own performance and i felt alot of regret last night. but i know it's no use crying over spilled milk. but sometimes when some things hit you, it is just such a HUGE impact that you can't control those tears anymore. And on top of that, my dad just had to go on and on about how stupid i am and how the questions i can't do is such easy question. And my mom constantly yelling at me to "STOP CRYING!" -.-

they make it seem like im crying just to get their sympathy. er i've been with them for 15 whole years. i kinda know that crying gets me no where? so why would i do that? gosh. parents.
HAHAHAHAH

my trombone exam is this friday. I. AM. SCARED. AS. HELL.
and i didn't get a lesson with Fredi today due to my lack of responsibility. not going to elaborate.

So, yeah. guess i really regret alot of things i've done. especially in the first half of this year. I remember Dr Fang telling my class that year 3 is the year we either "wake up" or we just "go down hill". i'd like to think i fall under the "wake up" category. Cause i think i really have.

I really don't want to give up. But sometimes, i really feel like i really am at rock bottom.

Hope i do adequately for my end of years examinations. sigh.

♥
R

cause i see sparks fly, whenever you smile

giving up.

2011-09-12T09:24:00.001-07:00

I'm tired and broken.
Ran out of hope.

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CHOCOLATE MOONCAKE.

2011-09-11T06:24:00.000-07:00

Hey people! :)

okay this is going to be a rather lengthy post. So stop reading now if you don't like boring wordy post with no pictures! :)

Friday (09/09)
I went to my mother's office. It was SOOOOOO boring. But the highlight was when i was going home with my mummy and we saw POLAR the cake shop. And We've always LOVED the vanilla butter cream cakes. I used to have them on every birthday or christmas party since primary 3. But i stopped because they always have childish characters on the cake -.- But anyhoo, we wanted to get a small cake. i think it's about 5 cm by 5 cm. But we couldn't decide on whether or not to get the "Tom" or the "Jerry". I like Jerry, mummy likes Tom. So guess what? We ended up buying both -.- HEHEHEEHHE BUT GUESS WHAT, again, THEY TURNED OUT TO BE THE CHOCOLATE ONE OMG IVE BEEN CHEATED *rage*

Then on the way home Mrs Wong msged me. I already told her i couldn't go for rehearsals! my mother doesn't let me go. WHAT AM I SUPPOSSED TO DO ABOUT IT OMG. RUN AWAY FROM HOME AND GO FOR REHEARSAL!?!?!? -______- and all the times that i go for rehearsals and other people don't turn up, and only like 2 freaking times in a row that i didn't turn up she gets all pissy and act like she's my boss. HELLO, YOU DONT PAY ME LAH PLEASE. urgh. she needs to retire i swear. Y SHE NO RETIRE UH?!?!??!?! yeah then my mom called her (Y) this mrs wong seriously drives us kids up a wall. no wonder no one likes to come for rehearsals. have to deal with this OLD WOMAN!

k moving on. So, i guess i did ALOT of reflection last night while on the phone with Sam. i hate reflecting. it's a good thing to do. But it kind of brings me more aware of things that i don't really want to be aware of? yeah...

Saturday (10/09)

woke up to a bloody lecture from my mother. She reminded me on how ugly i am.... yeah. thanks mom. i know i have a skin deficiency. yes i know im an ugly shit. but i don't really like to be reminded of it. every. single. day. but i guess she has a point. Society is so shallow. I probably can't get a job with such ugly skin. well i can, but it'll not be as easy. And people will just judge and look at me differently. I mean, if you see a good looking person and an ugly person, your natural instinct is to talk to the good looking one. As shallow and mean it sounds, it is true. That first impression, means the most. So screw the shallow society. I can only pray that people are more forgiving and more compassionate. But how much can God help. k i shouldn't continue. hahahah. just going to try to keep myself as decent looking as possible.

Oh, and i confessed to my mom about the iPod thing. Yes kinda late. But i told her the whole truth. im glad i did :)

So because of this bloody lecture, i didn't go for sectionals. Rehearsals are a waste of my bloody time. Im just going there to get my extra half and hour with Fredi.

Sunday (11/09)

Woke up and headed to church with my mom :)
So, my confirmation name is "Chiara" it's the Italian version of "Clare" and it's pronounced "kee-ya-rah" :) I like this name. I was debating over Chiara or Germaine. I wanted Germaine because i wanted a saint that is related to a lamb and St Germana was a shepherdess. and Chiara was a patron of sore eye. so i prayed and the next day i had a sore eye, i took it as a sign from God :) SO MY CONFIRMATION NAME IS CHIARA ♥ AND SHE'S THE PATRON OF TELEVISION TOO. OMG MY. LIFE. IS. COMPLETE. HEHEHEHEHEHE
Handed up my essay, letter, form and everything needed for confirmation! :) I hope my essay isn't shitty :( :( :( :( :( :( :( and i hope it doesn't sound too.... textbook kind of answers. :| OH WELL. IT'S DONE.

Didn't go for Children Liturgy because of the stupid concert :( :( :( It was a very screwed up concert anyway. I Think Dr Tan is angry at us. :| ah. oh well.

So now here i am. blogging. instead of doing my IHSS essay. I shall do it at 9:30pm, which is in 8 minutes from now :)

OH! AND BROWN HAS TWITTER! HAHAHAHA PIGS ARE GOING TO START FLYING TOMORROW! AHAHAHHA

♥
R

You're so irresistible...... Oh Chocolate Mooncake, Will you be mine? ♥

Shorter Hair.

2011-09-07T20:48:00.000-07:00

Hey people! :)

I CUT MY HAIR! IT'S SHORT NOW :O

I am amazed at how i managed to be able to stand my long hair! It feels so good to have less hair!
This makes me even more tempted to shave bald sooner.... hmm...

Benefits of having shorter hair:

It's easier to wash therefore having a shorter time in the bathroom. therefore saving water too
It's lighter.
It's normally of better quality than having longgggg hair.
It's sooooo easy to maintain. (except when it's at the length where it's JUST above your shoulders)
It doesn't tangle up easily
MORE GOOD HAIR DAYS
not so warm! especially if you live in a country like Singapore, SUMMER ALL YEAR ROUND
When you turn your head you won't flip your hair into someone's face that easily. (unless you're a retard who likes to do that)
You can let it down and it still won't get in your way. (Sometimes Long hair can get in your way when it's down.)
IT. JUST. IS. BETTER. OKAY. YOUR. ARGUEMENT. IS. INVALID.

teehee :P

okay. i hope i look better than before. :| Though alot of people are saying my best feature is my hair on the "like my status" thing on facebook :( sigh. and i cut it off.... oh well. The pros of having short hair still makes up for not looking good. HAHAAAHAHA

♥

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2011-09-07T08:34:00.001-07:00

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AVERY REPLIED ME!!!! ♥

2011-09-06T00:46:00.000-07:00

Hi guys!

I started my day with a reply from the one and only amazing Avery!

LOOK GUYS! LOOK LOOK LOOK! :))))))

Anna Marie Iannitelli I think you're really that amazing ♥

Her songs are just..... GO LISTEN TO THEM YOURSELF.

GOOD GOOD?? of course. if it's not, GO SCREW YOURSELF ;)

hahaha

wish to catch her in a concert one day! ♥

Alrighties. So enough Hype!

I finished a page per chapter for physics. Done all the math sums i was assigned to do. And i slacked for pretty much an hour by now. I should start doing the IHSS work. It's 5%. :(

oh yes. and finish THE VIDEO

♥

Shoes♥

2011-09-05T06:31:00.000-07:00

So what keeps me alive when im doing my revision?

CHOCOLATE. CHOCOLATE. MORE. CHOCOLATE.

and yes, i am aware that i am sick and shouldn't have any chocolate.

what do i do when i run out of them?

BROWSE THE WEB TO LOOK AT PRETTY SHOES.

So out of probably the million of shoes i had seen, these stood out the most! :)

YSL

Sweet 16! *hinthint* ;)
Should go suck up to my Daddy HEHEHEHEHEHEHEH
yes, im quite a Daddy's girl. No, im not ashamed of it.
Though, it'll probably to convince my mother when it comes to shopping :P

alright who am i kidding. I've enough shoes. I'm only 15. Not a socialite. Why do i need to have so much.

OH YES, MR STROMBERG REPLIED ME. FINALLY.

i've nothing left to post about.

♥
R

Exams are coming!

2011-09-04T18:15:00.000-07:00

Ahhhhhhhhh

One whole week to revise as much as i can!
Gonna try my best. And have a break and go to Vincent's party on Thursday! Though im still having troubles in finding him a present.... THOUGH IVE GOT A SURPRISE FOR HIMMMMMM :D
And so does Miguel.
He is going to have a really good birthday. I CAN SEE IT COMING! AHHAHA

What do boys like? HELP!

anyway, Tuition in 45 mins. Going to tidy up the table and have some Tuna sandwich.

Happy Mugging Everyone!

♥
R

Malaysia

2011-09-03T01:41:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps! :)

I'm back from Malaysia! And sick -____- gah D: but anyhoo, HERE'S MY SHORT AND RATHER BORING TRIP.

Tuesday(30/08)

Woke up at 6am to catch a 8am plane to Kuching. Arrived at my grandmother's house at about 2pm. Had lunch and practiced my Trombone. The place was like a dead town that day. O.O really. Took a plane to Sibu at about 5pm and arrived there and had dinner at this really really old restaurant. The food was pretty decent :)

Dinner in Sibu

After dinner we went to my maternal Grandmother's house. IT. IS. ANCIENT. like really. MY MOTHER moved into this house when she was 5 years old. My grandfather built this house back then. It's a pity i never got to meet my grandfather...

grandma's ancient house

Dad looking like a 4 year old boy

once again

Wednesday (31/08)

The breakfast in the hotel was TERRIBLE. yes, terrible. There was a fly in the croissant >:( gross
yes, i forgot to mention, SIBU IS INFESTED WITH MOSQUITOS. INFESTED I TELL YOU, INFESTED

so my cousin came to pick us up and we went shopping the whole morning.
I was lazy to take pictures. But i took pictures for my FAVOURITE STORE!
Everything in there was so sweet and cute! and PINK!

I bought 2 super sweet dresses. It was sooooo worth it. 99RM ($41.25) for one dress. I can't wait to wear themmmmm ♥

Stopped at the kindergarten that my mother attended

and adjourned to my Grandmother's house for lunch! :)

I SWEAR MY GRANDMA LIKES TO STUFF HER KIDS AND GRANDKIDS WITH FOOD! THERE WAS SOOOO MUCH FOOD. and she loves carbs... so, yeah go figure. I like how a simple meal can taste so good :) though it was way too much food :|

Malaysian Shandy

My Aunt's cat is adorable. It kept checking my mom and i out when we came. It was like a ninja cat! And i think it doesn't like me -____- Just look at the way it looks at me when i take a picture of it!

Aunt's cat

Neighbour's dog

Aunt's motorcycle

Aunt's super ancient bike that she still uses

After Lunch we drove around and stopped at My mother's primary school! :)

Mom's primary school

More shopping. And yes, once again i was lazy to take pictures except for the stores that was outstanding to me. I got a pair of heels at this store for about 150RM(about $62). It wasn't a very nice price but i liked them so HECK I'D JUST GET THEM ANYWAY.

Went to the Skin Food. It's cheaper there! :)

skin food

Attended my Dad's cousin's wedding at night! :)

Mother looking all pretty

The Bride had quite a pretty dress but it was a pity that it wasn't done well. It was dropping off her back. :|

The Bride

I was too far away. It's hard to take pictures. so mind the terrible photos -___-

THERE WAS A MERLION IN A DISH. LOLWUT!?

swippin' the cream of the cake with my finger (Y)

Aunt and Uncle

Cousin, Anderson

Paternal Grandparents

Kate Spade

♥

And here i am standing awkwardly inbetween my dad and the bride -_____-

We walked back to the hotel after the wedding. Yes, Sibu is THAT small.... It was rather scary though. Experience of a lifetime. NEXT UP, CROSSIN' A ROAD IN VIETNAM! trololoolololololol

finally back in the hotel! :)

Thursday (01/09)

-usual morning routines-

Headed to buy Kompia
Kompia is a really flat bread that has sesame on top of it. Usually eaten with meat stuffed inside. I usually have it with Tuna! Bought back alot of Kompia to feast on in Singapore because they don't sell it here. well i think they do but it's
probably
definitely not as nice as the ones in Malaysia! :)

Headed to have Kampua Mee for breakfast. Kampua Mee is like an Asian version of Aglio Olio. Really. They use Olive oil, We use.... i really don't know what oil it is but it's probably not healthy at all. BUT IT TASTE GOOD. And the store owner so happened to be a Guinness record holder! for what? for the most number of times he had been a best man. 1445 Weddings from September 1975 to 26 February 2009! damn this guys i popular. Either that or he's a "professional best men" that people like to hire...

Had Lunch at a restaurant called "Sheraton" with my Maternal relatives. And once again, I WAS STUFFED WITH FOOD.

JUST LOOK AT THE SIZE OF THE CURRY FISH. LIKE HELLO THATS FOR AT LEAST 6 PEOPLE!? JUST THAT DISH. and we had like 4 other dishes -____-

Drove around after lunch! :)
The river is so dirty :|

Took a plane to Kuching and checked into Pullman at about 7pm. What a late check in, i know. I had my own room once again. *cheers*. so i brought along my imaginary friend Victoria to sleep on the other bed! :) the room is nicer than fourpoints by Sheraton :) AND GUESS WHAT, IT IS CHEAPER TO STAY IN THIS AMAZING HOTEL AS COMPARED TO THE ONE IN SIBU. -____- I guess it's cause the hotel in Sibu was high in demand at that time as many people had gone back to do visiting... maybe that's why Kuching was like a dead town the day i arrived... hmmmm...

I look so messy in the upcoming photos. well i guess it's cause i had a long day....

"don't touch my kueh lapis. i have a knife and im not afraid to use it!"

OM NOM NOM NOM NOM

Friday (02/09)

-skips the morning-

Had lunch in the chinese restaurant with my cousins and grandparents. The restaurent was literally empty. we were the only table.

Majorly fascinated by the lights

majorly fascinated by my bowl of porridge

majorly fascinated by the emptiness

Oh dad, you're such a 4 year old.

I was sick the whole day but wasn't really aware of it -_____-
So i went shopping with my cousins with a really bad mood. huh.

Came back home for dinner before heading off to the airport!

At the airport

BYE MALAYSIA, HELLO SINGAPORE! :)

So what do i feel about the whole trip. It feels amazing to have the feeling of Family :)
Im the only one in Singapore so it's hard to have a whole bunch of relatives over at someone's house having dinner. Knowing that they're there for me and that they love me is just amazing, really. especially My maternal side. Im not being biased or anything but it's true. The relatives on that side really take care of each other in every way possible. Well majority of them, that is. The ones that i hardly see or talk to, i can't really say much about them. On my paternal side i guess we're more distant but among us cousins we're alright. We hang and chill together and i guess i can talk to Isabel the best. The rest of them are either too young or not my age. But the language barrier is just.... annoying. I NEED TO IMPROVE IN MY CHINESE -_____-
anyway, sometimes i wish i had an older sister or brother who could take care of me and i could have someone to talk to everyday without having the worry of trust issues.

About the place, well i would never see myself living in Sibu or kuching. So.... yeah i guess i'm going to be a Singaporean. But after going around Sibu with my mother, I understand why she doesn't want to give up her Malaysian citizenship.

that's about it! :)

on a side note, IM SO LOVING THE NEW BLOGGER INTERFACE!!!

♥
R

When Packing Your Luggage for a HOLIDAY

2011-08-29T07:46:00.000-07:00

Ok so the first thing i will pack into my luggage is:

MY. PJ'S.

i wouldn't know what i'd do without PJ'S

and yes, im not embarrassed about it. Best PJ'S are found in Australia :)

This trip im going with ALL PINK :D

Shorts for when it's warm

Long for when it's cold

La Senza

I LIKE THIS BAG WHICH I USE TO STORE MY UNDERGARMENTS. I THINK IT'S SUPER CUTE. personal preference. just saying...

Wear Rompers because it's easy and comfortable. No need to go through the hassle of matching your top with your bottom.

Some boutique in HongKong, Yatch21, Some cheapo place in Bangkok

Cotton On, Levi's

The "Just incase i dirty my rompers" outfit:

The outfit that fits the "Grandmother's expectations" :

(i personally HAVE to wear jeggings on holidays. they're so much more comfortable than jeans)

The outfit for the Wedding:

The Spare outfit:

The shawl that's for in case of emergency:

If you are staying in a hotel with a pool or going to the beach, You'd definitely need a cute lil' bikini. Whereas for me, i've gotten fat and im super conscious cause im an Asian like that. So i'm going for this swiming suit:

I am NOT a fan of smelliness. So perfume or deodorant is a MUST. Bring a small bottle. I'd bring NYC by Sarah Jesicca Parker because it comes in a 30ML bottle. Small and smells FABULOUS!

Alternatively, i'd just bring the miniatures of the perfumes that i like. Who's going to bring that huge ass bottle of Viva la Juicy or Couture Couture!? NOT ME! So, when you're buying perfumes, make sure you ask the nice little store lady to give your the miniature/travel sized versions! :)

Because i've got super terribly dry skin, I'd need to bring my army with me. By army, im referring to Dr WEILS! these are so so good. I recommend it to WHOEVER WHO IS SUFFERING FROM DRY SKIN LIKE ME. Not that your skin will magically be soft and moist and perfect. It just heals the scars and makes the face softer. especially the Face wash. Ok enough advertising. I should get paid.

Another MUST would be lip balm/chapstick/lip smacker.

I'd just go with Vaseline. it's simple and a classic. AND LOOK AT HOW CUTE IT IS. IT IS POCKET SIZED! ♥

Other necessities would be body cream and hair conditioner. Im not going to bother on bringing shampoo because hotels have shampoo. And im lazy to transfer my shampoo into a small bottle. HEH.

AND I'M DONE :D

Just need a hand carry luggage to fit things like my passport, cardigan, book, wallet. ETC :) Always best to use a bagpack or a haversack that's in a SOLID COLOUR. cause i have the mentality that solid colours match almost anything to a certain extend :P

I chose to go for my Pink Elle bag! :)

AND YES, WEAR SOMETHING COMFORTABLE ON THE PLANE!

Think i'd go with The grey Levi's bagging top and Jeggings with a sport shoe or oxfords. I'll pick it tomorrow depending on my mood!

OH YES. MUST. BRING. CAMERA.

alright!

IM OFF TO MALAYSIA!

BYE GUYS!

♥

Weekends

2011-08-28T02:37:00.000-07:00

Stop for a minute and, SMILE :)

Hi guys!!
The weekends are always the best ♥

Yesteray!

so last night was East Distric Youth DAY! :)

It was EXTREMELY LONG. from 6 to 1030
I was sooooOOOoooOOOOOOoooooOOOooo tired.
But it was actually quite good. the priest was amazing. though i think he has alot of stories to tell (reminds me of Dr Christina Tan :P )
Mass was quite funny at some points cause Lavina was being ... well, Lavina.
But it was SOOOOOO cold. Brandon's hand was extremely cold !!
Yeah! So im not really going to talk about my reflections on last night over here because it's quite private.... but in short: Guilty. (i just realised how wrong this might sound to those who were there. so just to clarify things, IM NOT GUILTY OF WATCHING PORN AH!! -.- )

Met some primary school friends like Isabelle, Rene, Stephanie, Debbie, Nicole, Vanessa and Veronica :)

I like how WE BLEND IN WITH DA BLACKNESS. it's like a bunch of blue shirts

♥Lauren,Me,Venetia ♥

Today!
There wasn't any Cathechisem. So, Cheers to longer sleep!:)

Had Children Liturgy.
Read the Gospel (Y)
but i no one was paying attention so yeah....-.-
FAIL

Here's a quick story.

Christian took my wallet and left it in Vincent's bag. ASDFGHJKL-.- *fastsforwardlongstory* my mother saw me take my wallet from vincent and then she gave me a lecture-.-
~~THIS STUPID BROWN WILL DIE~~
AH SHIT STUPID BROWN NOT COMING NEXT WEEK !
hahahahah ok that wasn't very funny. it kinda sucked. but im not angry or anything :)
Moral of the story: Never let Christian near my belongings

Photos from Children Liturgy Taken from Lauren's Facebook!

us with our assigned mentors :)

This is just Precious

Cause we readers are so good that no one pays attention to us (Y)

I took Jesus as my saviour, YOU TAKE HIM TOO!

BYE KIDZZZZ

♥Daryl, Christian, Lauren and I♥

we spammed the last 6 films
Bookshop stairs & Bell Tower

Look how awkward the last photo is

I feel really fat when i look at the pictures :(
And i swear christian is really skinny O.O

Alright. Enjoy the long holidays

♥
R

Skinny Pizza with Lyn ♥

2011-08-26T23:31:00.000-07:00

Hi guys! :)

finally a post with proper pictures :D sorry it's still not the D&D pictures... I WILL GET THERE!!!

So i woke up at 7 today and was dropped off at school at about 8am because my dad had a meeting at 830am. I needed to grab my trombone for rehearsals which were at 10am. So on my way OUT of school, I met Dr Tan. And she went "wow you're practicing so early today!" *grins*

I stupidly headed over to esplanade library without thinking that today was a public holiday. go figure. it was closed. But at that time, i didn't know it was closed because of a public holiday. I thought it was just not opening time yet.

Rehearsals were neutral. John came when rehearsal ended so that just sucked for him :P

Met Lyn at Raffles City and ate at Skinny Pizza For Lunch! :)

Well since a pictures speaks a thousand words, HERE YOU GO! :D

Majorly fascinated by the legs of the table and chairs

Majorly fascinated by the lights

Majorly fascinated by the pizza boxes

Alrighties! going to go do some work now!

East District Youth day in about 4 hours! *excited*

BYE

♥

Life goes ON and ON and ON and ON

2011-08-24T07:20:00.000-07:00

HI FUTURE HUSBAND WHOM I DO NOT KNOW OF
use that to propose to me. Preferably in platinum.
OKTHXBYE

Yay! I finally completed my exams for term3! :)

I was not exactly answering the question for Literature. So im in deep shit for that concidering it's 20%

老师 said i improved ALOT from my previous presentation. SO I AM VERY HAPPY. i expect him to give me good marks. if not i will personally hunt him in his sleep for giving me high hopes.

HEEE does that look like me??

I did my oral presentation on my mother! The topic was a "nation's hero". I didn't know that, I thought it was just "a hero"... hence me picking my mother. But i managed to somehow say certain things that relates it back to the topic. and it was alright in the end :)

Oh yes, on a very very negative side note...... I landed myself on the wall of shame. FML. The Wall of Shame is the link on the Music Faculty's wikispace that shows a list of students who have done something Wrong or Not done something they were supposed to do. As for my case, it would be not attending a scheduled rehearsal with the accompanist. gah :(

Im upset on getting my ass on that thing. But what makes me feel like shit, would be the fact that i let myself down again. I am trying hard to be more responsible. I want to prove to my mother i can be responsible and that i can handle freedom. And then i do something as stupid as this. So much for improving. Maybe i really am good for nothing..... :|

Alright, moving on to a less depressing and non academic topic. My Dad said that the organisers have emailed him on the photos! *rejoices* So you can expect an update on the D&D in the next post! (hopefully) Those people take forever to sort out pictures i swear. So. Not. Efficient.

Life has been pretty good so far. East Distric Youth Day on Saturday! ♥ I really hope there would be reflection time. I think I need it. I know self reflection and prayers can be done at home but i tend to just fall asleep halfway or i would get distracted by something halfway. it's so annoying. Anyway, I would get to meet alot of my primary school friends during the EDYD too! ♥ i kind of miss them even though i dont have much of an emotional attachment to them anymore :| heh oh well good time for catching up too! :) Hope it'll be fun and a fruitful event this saturday! :) And i hope i dont get distracted by the surroundings. psht.

Alright, enough blogging. I am going to go slack for the rest of the night because i think i deserve a break. Math and a bit of Chemistry from 7pm to 9pm. NOT. FUN. But worth it eventually :)

bye! work hard everyone! it's always worth it in the end. (such a cliche bitch lol)

♥

Toddlers & Tiaras

2011-08-21T02:01:00.000-07:00

Currently taking a break from chinese and watching Toddlers & Tiaras.

It's such an entertaining show about bratty kids who think they are princesses. Go entertain yourselves now and watch it!

Im currently waiting for the photographer to send my dad the pictures from the D&D so that i can blog about it. But it's taking FOREVER to come. so not efficient.

k. bye for now

♥

One Year Ago

2011-08-19T06:50:00.000-07:00

A year ago i fell in love with you. We've been through a lot. really. He taught me so much. All the shit we had put each other through. All the fights we've had. All the clashes in everything we did and wanted. Even though it's over, we both know that in our hearts, it isn't. At least for now. It'll be kind of different now i guess. But who cares, After everything, I Still Love You ♥

You're the bestest Best Friend i've ever got :)

"our sense of well being in light of recent socio-economic disintegration may waver, but how much i love you won't change.
the light may dim and the internet connection may be slow and there may be some lag, but how much i love watching intervention with you over skype won't change."

- Jacob Hoggard

♥

God answers prayers :)

2011-08-17T08:25:00.000-07:00

Today God really answered my prayer :)

Thanks God. You're the best ♥

Today was an awesome day! well that makes up for my shitty ass day yesterday! :)

I will make better posts after this week ends i promise!

Babe's birthday's on Sunday! and i haven't bought her anything. shit :( im the worst friend on earth. well can't blame me, MY ATM CARD GOT CONFISCATED. #RAGERAGERAGE

ok. it's 11:27pm. i should sleep. but i've got wet hair. gah.

bye

♥

formspring.me

2011-08-17T07:31:00.001-07:00

COME MAH BEETCHEZ, ASK! :D http://formspring.me/rachaelsia

Terrible. Day.

2011-08-16T05:55:00.000-07:00

Refer to title.

Im not going to make this a depressing post. So i shall not go into details... :)

sigh...

I really want to sleep. sleep. sleep. till the IB then i'll wake up to take the exam. THEN GO LIKE "OH SHIT!"

lol. joking.

I just want to be somewhere in the middle with you. But that's selfish of me.

Ah. screw this. We tried. It didn't work. I can't trust you. You can't trust me. I should suck it up. Get over it. Move on.

BUT I FUCKING MISS YOU! And i think you really don't give a fuck anymore. Which is good! But sad.

I need that friend. The one who i can talk about anything and everything too. I need someone like Sam when he was my best friend. Cause right now, all i've got is my pillow. And GOD ♥

im going to suck it in and not be whiney about shit that happens. Because, what doesn't kill you, makes you stronger. And "some people have REAL problems." - John O'callaghan

So im having a decent life. I need to just suck it up.

TIME FOR CHINESE!!!

ALL THE BEST TO EVERYONE WHO IS TAKING ANY TEST OR EXAM OR ANYTHING!

oh, i did badly for math-.- urgh.

BYE!

♥

Cupcakefrostings.tumblr.com

2011-08-14T02:31:00.000-07:00

HI I Will be treating my Tumblr as my Blog for the next week because i wouldn't be posting lengthy posts. Not until next week's over at least :) So...... Do go to My Tumblr if you want to ~~stalk me~~ read about what's going on in my life ~~because you have nothing better to do~~ because you are such a darling that way :)

Do follow if you've got a tumblr too! ~~Because i have not enough followers on Tumblr~~ That way i can check yours out :)

THANKS!

♥,

Because exams are important

2011-08-13T01:24:00.000-07:00

Hi gaizzz

Im pretty busy being a mugger right now. (lol jk not really.)

so i wont be updating with pictures and stuff regularly. SORRY

I will be back after next week! ♥

BYE

♥

break

2011-08-11T07:42:00.000-07:00

Im falling like no body's business.

OK. so hi. If i am talking to you and i start tearing up, PLEASE CHANGE THE SUBJECT ASAP.

i almost embarrassed myself today infront of Xavier because we were talking and i was trying so hard not to cry but i started tearing up. *AWKWARD MOMENT*

ok. thanks for your understanding. heehee.

im spamming Keryn's facebook notifications right now ♥

I AM A PRO AT THIS HEHEHEHEH

k. i shall go back to the spamming. BYE

♥

A Sleepless Night and a Long Boring Day

2011-08-10T07:07:00.000-07:00

So yeah. I had a terrible night last night. I blogged but i deleted it. I realised i do that alot. i treat this page like my diary. But i realise that it's much more public than that so i delete the post afterwards :)

I think it's good. i rant it all out, then get rid of the memory afterwards...

So yes. i spent my day at my mother's super small and boring office.

I don't even have the energy to show my teeth when i smile. My eye bags are almost as big as my eyes. All due to my sleepless night.

My mother told me to cut my hair today. So i started playing with it while i could. And i made a really pretty fishtail. And i had to take a picture of it and this was my lucky shot. But it still isn't lucky enough because it's not even focused and my fishtails can't be seen. damn.

But in the end, i didn't cut my hair :) If i had gone to cut my hair i might have just chopped it all off. I'd come to school with Dr Koh hair. And i'd regret it so much i'd consider wearing a paper bag over my head.

the mood was too depressing. Doing physics and stoning majority of the time with nothing going through my head. Heavy eyelids that just want to give my eyes a rest. give my body a rest. So i decided i need ICE CREAM! :D

So i forced my busy at work mother to come with me and we headed downstairs to Cold Stone Creamery! ♥ it's like i was in heaven! I made her buy me ice cream because im a brat like that. No im kidding, mother offered to pay ♥

Guess what i picked? ;)

YES! The oreo one! ♥ I'd say it's not worth $8.90 but it was heavenly. No. Regrets. :)

So here i am now being an awkward but happy kid. getting ready to start walloping that ice cream. om nom nom nom nom. I like how stoned and awkward i look here. ok i don't like it. But it's the only picture i've got. I was too lazy to get all pose-y pose-y

Back to reality. I headed home to have some math tuition.

My mother called my tutor to complain about me. screw that. it's so unfair because while other people were out having fun, i willingly chose to stay home and do my work. And so what if i got distracted by the Teen Choice Awards or by Facebook or by Tumblr. At least i still got my work done. and no mom, i didn't do only 3 questions. If you bothered to look through my work first before you say something, maybe you'd know how many questions i've done. yeah sure it's not like i did 50 sums but it's definitely NOT just 3 questions. You can't expect me to be in the mood to do any work when it's a holiday and everyone should have a little rest. I dont care if you and dad are workaholics. I AM NOT MY MOM OR DAD.

i was so hurt when i was writing "i know im good for something" (mayday parade lyrics) on my paper and when i was going to write "something" my mom came and snatched my book at read "i know im good for. for what. good for nothing"

Even my own mother thinks im good for nothing.

What do i feel about myself now when everyone has given up on me?

urgh screw it, i know my mother always means the best for me and wants the best for me. And i know im the only child so the bar is set higher. I know my parents put in alot of effort into making me a better person. I should be ever grateful and i should just give back to them by being the best i can be. But sometimes, I grow tired of life and i just need a break. I need to figure out what i want to do with my life.

At the end of the day, im still a mess.

♥

PRAY FOR LONDON

2011-08-09T20:21:00.000-07:00

i miss too many people at one go my heart cant maintain.

sleep less nights spent talking to my wall. or rather, God.

I really need to go for another vacation right now. maybe i'll convince my mom to let me go to KL in week 10... i just really want to run away right now.

oh just in case you think i want to run away because of relationship problems, you're wrong. I'm not that kind of girl-.- There's more to me then that.

Though i do think i should have proper closure next time. i always have those hanging kind of endings and i just dont know how to think or feel. -.- #loser4lyfe

But who am i to complain
"SOME PEOPLE HAVE REAL PROBLEMS" - John O

PRAY FOR LONDON! PLEASE DO! THE RIOTS ARE NOT WORTH IT. PRAY. ♥

EVERYONE SHOULD:

Since we're kinda talking about all things Britsh.... we should end it on a good note. so, HELLO CHUCK BASS! ;)
This was the filming of GG season 5 (09/08/11)

I can't even begin talking about how excited i am!!!

BLAIR AND CHUCK ARE IMPERFECTLY PERFECT TOGETHER ♥
(oh and do notice blair's boobiezzz in the 3rd picture *droolzzz)

k. i shall go now! BYE!

♥

naughty girl

2011-08-09T07:37:00.001-07:00

Hi guys!
Sorry i won't be able to update properly for awhile :(
My mother took my mac. And phone. But I got it back for a few hours :)
Sigh...
Anyway, happy national day all you Singaporeans out there!!!! ♥
Sorry I don't have any other appropriate picture to use-.-
Alright. Go celebrate then study tomorrow! Exams are coming!
Gosh I'm such a nerd.
Then in week 10 I am freeeeeeee
Dad allows me to have a bbq! Yay!:)

K bye!
♥
R

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Happy Birthday Singapore and ah ma :)

2011-08-08T00:11:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE (in advance at least)

Had so much fun in school today. Though i must say, i hate my class when it comes to stuff that requires people to be enthusiastic. not a single person in my class would go join these kind of stuff on their own initiative. Only a few would come join after seeing other people do it. so. annoying. i miss my R3/G3 vibe :( But well, it got fun after awhile anyway! probably cause i moved to join other people. but yeah. who cares. i had fun ♥

Started off my day quite shitty. But i wasn't going to let it ruin my mood. because, i am the one who choses my mood. whether or not i want to be happy or let my day be ruined because of one thing, it is all up to me. so i figured, hey, why get worked up over it, i should be happy :)

but i hope sam's fine.... :( im actually kinda worried... but what can i do eh?

So, here's me being a patriotic not so Singaporean Citizen!

Red nails

Red Hair (Spray)

Red Hair (Wax)

Red and White HairBand

(i wasn't going to do this but Kai Sing did it for me)

Red Lips (lip stainer)

Red and White Bag

(because i dont have red or white sport shoes)

Red and white socks

SEXY PATRIOTIC BITCH

AHHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH i was contemplating on whether or not i should embarrass myself. but i thought i might as well do so since my blog is rather open anyway :)

I can't wait for the photos that other people took to be uploaded on to facebook! ♥

omg yeah and i talked to K :) well fine i just said a sentence. BUT AIYA. GOOD ENOUGH LAH. i guess it's only awkward if you think it's awkward. it actually isn't. and yeah well we dont really have much to talk about anyway. Well first loves dont go very far but they'll remain forever in your heart i guess? hahahaha! today's a good day :)

anyway,

It's my ah mah's birthday today and i only found out when i was in Daiso with Claudia-.-

SO i bought her fake flowers and wrote her a card.... it's the thought that counts ;)

I get my room back today because my aunt and both my grandparents left. So yeah!

So life's good. Everyone needs to be happy. cause being happy is good. so be happy.

PETER PAN ♥

okay. going to do some homework now. BYE GUYS!

♥

formspring.me

2011-08-07T02:45:00.001-07:00

COME MAH BEETCHEZ, ASK! :D http://formspring.me/rachaelsia

But i know we'd make it ♥

2011-08-07T01:48:00.000-07:00

Hey peeps! :)

I always feel very scared when i see my counter increase in number. cause that means someone read my blog. which means there will always be a very high chance that person is judging me or talking bad about me or something bad. Im just paranoid and pretty self conscious. So annoying right? -.- But yet, i still post like no body's business. Then i'd start worrying after posting it. But yeah.... Ok that's besides the point. ANYWAY,

Isn't that gorgeous!? I wish i lived next to something like this... then everyday i'd do this:

HAHAHA LIFE WOULD BE SO AMAZING. i'd have a party everyday i swear. or when im upset or angry, i'd just run and jump into the water and go swim:) maybe i'd even build a slide so i can slide into the water! :)

I wouldnt mind living at some place like this either:

i think it might drive some people crazy. But NOT ME! IT'S SO COLOURFUL AND BEAUTIFUL I CANT EVEN BEGIN GOING ON ABOUT HOW AMAZINGLY PRETTY THIS IS!

haha, i guess you could say im a dreamer :) oh oh oh that's a song by elton john! :)

"you might say im a dreamer, But im not the only one" ♥

Okay, so what happened today.

Woke up at 9 today and was sent to church at 1015am. I hate waking up early. I like to sleep. I am a pig. I embrace my Pig-ness. haha this reminds me of Vincent :P wonder if you're reading this now, if you are, HI! :D

anyway, children liturgy was alright today. Daryl wasn't feeling well and Lauren was in Malaysia with the cathechists for the retreat.... Nothing extra happened during mass. OH WAIT, W LEARNT A NEW SONG! :O

i don't like it! I WANT THE TREE SONG BACK !!! D: hurh. oh wait something interesting happened, Christian got "scolded" by a little boy. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAH!! kids these days :) He keeps making fun of me for not being able to tie my laces. I CAN TIE MY LACES OKAY. I JSUT CANT TIE IT WELL! TSKKKK.

Had lunch with them in the canteen. But Vincent had to go off cause it was his mom's birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY VINCENT'S MOM!

The adults bought pizza, shepherds pie(??) and KFC. It was nice :) Then we did the standard thing that everyone does during a meal with friends, mix all the food together. -.-

So we mixed coke, chicken, pizza, mash potatoes, gravy, chili powder, chili sauce. SO. GROSS. I. SWEAR.

Christian and Travis left early. Cause Travis had something on. But Christian's just Christian. SO THEY LEFT ME THERE. TSK. BLOODY HELL. hhahahahha ok i could have left but i just felt bad :| So i was the only one from my class left there. But it's alright, it's not like i can't talk to the people from the other class... OR MAKE FRIENDS WITH THE LITTLE KIDZZ >:) LOL joking. they are quite annoying. keep making fun of us. once again, kids these days....

At about 2, we went up for the meeting. But we started off with ice breakers. I left halfway cause my mom asked me to go home-.- So i went home with Dillon since he was going back home. haha. So basically, no one from 3A went for the briefing-.- awesome class. hahahaha :)

So now im at home. i've finished doing an hour of math. This weather makes me sleepy. zzzzz

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHA #LIKEABOSS

Anyway, i painted my nails red for national day.

PATRIOTIC MUCH! HAHAHAHAH!

going to colour my hair red too. and wear a white head band. And maybe even paste a flag on my face. MWAHAHAHHHAHAHA i will upload a picture of myself being a patriotic non- citizen tomorrow! :)

I shall end this post with this super funny thing i saw on tumblr. ok it's funny to me at least. AHHAHA I NEED TO DO THIS TO ALL BOTTLES CONTAINING PASTES/LIQUID/GELS/ETC

Bye guys! go study. i will post more TOMORROW :D

♥

PS. NEVER GIVE UP :)

How i feel all summarised with PICTURES!

2011-08-06T02:19:00.000-07:00

^^^^^ please refer to above before you judge me. thanks ^^^^^^^

I think I need to have a party some time soon.... I only do birthday parties. Time to start having no occasion parties! But it's always easier to have a party when there's an occasion. heh.

ASDFGHJKL :))) ♥

Studied pretty much the whole day today. So im in a NERD MODE NOW.

NURDEE_GURL96

and lastly,

I KNEW IT! THEY EXIST! I. KNEW. IT.

this was a pretty random post.

♥

Because a girl can dream

2011-08-05T20:00:00.000-07:00

Alice + Olivia silk one-shoulder dress- 405.71 Euro

Stella McCartney organza dress- 7,284.91 Euro

Alexander McQueen Resin leaf silk-satin peep-toe pumps - 922.87 Euro

MIU MIU patent-leather sandals- 396.79 Euro

Eject 12406 High-top - 185.32 USD

And i would never know when i can wear any of these but it'll be nice to have them anyway ;)

i've resorted to online "window shopping" because i've told myself i can't spend money for awhile. I've bought 2 new playsuits/rompers and i've not even worn either of them after 2 months. and im pretty sure i've got more than enough clothes in my cupboard. I don't want to waste money so often. How would maintain this lifestyle in the future if i don't earn the equivalent of what my parents earn in order to maintain a kid like me.

I want to go get a job. but not in macs or any of those shitty fast food joints. But then again, who would hire a 15 year old like me unless they're desperate for help? -.-

hahaha okay i took an hour break from doing math. Going to go back to my math and head to LIterature. I talk about subjects as though they're a country and im going over for a vacation. I am so ridiculous

Prayer Assembly later on at Pasir Ris Park ♥

♥

Friend :)

2011-08-05T06:53:00.000-07:00

(the best thing i could find to show "friendship". and besides, they're hot. from behind at least)

awwww thanks Danielle ♥

I need to be level headed eh. ahhahaha

THANKS BABE ♥

CRAZY BITCH IN THE HOUSE

2011-08-04T08:04:00.000-07:00

Hi guys. sorry for the not happy posts recently -.-

anyway, i've got the massive blister under my right toe :( it's not popped. gah. it's been there since last friday after netball. and it's been a week. this sucks. BUT I LOVE NET BALL! IT'S SUCH A CRAZY AND FUNY GAME! :D

speaking of crazy, I WENT CRAZY TODAY DURING LUNCH AHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA (in a positive way) went around smacking boobs and butts. HELL YEAH BOOB/BUTT CATCHING! ♥

everyone needs to play this game. it's so fun. it'll be so hot to play this game at the beach when everyone is in a bikini. mmmmmm ;) ok mind me. i think im still kinda crazy....

then i got so tired from all the running-.- and i died. And had brass ensemble -.- NOT. SMART.

But it was good to have these crazy moments :) Reminds me of R3/G3.

HI R3/G3 PEOPLE IF YOU'RE READING THIS,

I MISS ALL OF YOU. EVERY. SINGLE. ONE. OF. YOU.

From Bramina, Claudia, Gisele, Danielle, Zandra to Wen Long and Yi En to Wan Ting and Chan Yee to Denise and Dylan and Ashley to Kenenth to Lloyd to Wei Ping. ok this list goes on. basically, I MISS HAVING THAT CRAZY AURA ♥ nothing beats the super enthusiastic R3/G3 Girls especially :)

nothing much happening. Im still on good terms with Sam :) hope that doesn't change .... :| well, once again, WE'LL SEE HOW THINGS GO :)

alright, it's 11:15pm. time to zzzzzzz

♥

Level Headed. Or so i think....

2011-08-03T07:43:00.000-07:00

^^^^^^^^^ What im good at ^^^^^^^^^^

Today was rather ...... neutral.

i swear im so .... "suay" sometimes it feels like God is doing it on purpose to punish me for my wrong doings-.-

THOUGH AFTER SCHOOL IT WAS SO FREAKING HILARIOUS WATCHING THE GUYS BEING BLOODY IDIOTS AHHAHAHAHAH :P

Chinese FA ✔

ARC essay ✔

Math Performance Task ✔

Next up, Chemistry Practical. IM GOING TO DO THIS THING AND DO IT WELL BECAUSE I BLOODY HELL WILL!

Prayer Assembly this Saturday at Pasir Ris :) Hope i can go!

So far, Claudia, Carisa, Dillon, Venetia, Christian are going. Vincent has "no mood" and i haven't convinced mother to let me go.... hurh. :(

School tomorrow. many double periods so wish me luck!

♥

Not allowing myself to Cry. Not today. Not today.

2011-08-01T08:11:00.000-07:00

Today my life just got all screwed over...

yes, we broke up. again. this time probably for good.

yes, i am officially back to the not over kenneth status. i think.

yes, i still really care about him.

no, i dont intend to try to get kenneth back because i dont want to hurt him anymore and im not worth his time.

yes, i am a free bitch now.

there that's all you need to know.

I'm so confused now. I'm lost.

I hope people would understand me. Don't ask me if im fine, cause im obviously not. And im sorry but i do not wish to talk to ANYONE about ANYTHING at all. Treat me normally. I want to hang out normally. Just pretend nothing's going on and that nothing happened. I would really love that. Please. Because i won't cry. no more. i promised myself. So please, don't make me cry. Just not this time.

"when you find the right one, at the wrong time...."

2011-07-31T03:20:00.000-07:00

hi i hope you guys see this.

LEAVE ME ALONE. GO AWAY.

I DONT WANT TO FACE IT NOW. LEAVE ME ALONE. GO COMFORT HIM AND WHAT NOT. JUST DONT COME AND TELL ME HE LOVES ME. GO AWAY. IVE MY OWN FEELINGS TO DEAL WITH TOO. DONT COME TELL ME HE'S CRYING. TAKE PITY ON HIM. BUT DONT TELL ME. I NEED MY SPACE TO THINK TOO. GO AWAY. ALL OF YOU. GET. THE. HELL. AWAY. FROM. ME. SCREW IT IF YOU GUYS THINK IM THE BITCH HERE. BUT YOU HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I GO THROUGH. SCREW OFF. GO AWAY. I WANT TO BE ALONE. I WANT TO DIE IN MY HOLE ALONE. GO AWAY.

Fireworks Action. Church. My screwed up life

2011-07-31T01:47:00.000-07:00

Babes ♥

THAT IS MY ANGEL PAMELA!!!! (second from left) they were so awesome! swag overflow ;)

I really missed hanging out with you two ♥

Twin ♥ oh god. eye bagz are like ASDFGHJKL

Yutong. Samantha. Alina

ONE. MORE. SONG. ONE. MORE. SONG.

they were so lovely :)

New genes!

i swear tyen is so so sexy. #justsaying ;)

yeah. that's how high we were ;)

FUCKYEAH UNDERAGED CLUBBING ON THE ROOFTOP WITHOUT BOOZE :P

so gorgeous.

amazing

i love this so much.

Lemuel takes such beautiful pictures of the fireworks!!

Rest of the photos credits to Cherie and Ching Yi

I begun my day with my mother in orchard. shopping.

Then i had lunch at Din Tai Fung. *droolzzzz*

And i met Sam and headed into school. He was in a bad mood. i should have seen it coming .....

Then met Charlene and Amelia and Lyn in the hall!! ♥

Headed up with everyone else when everyone came.

it was very warm at the beginning and it made me agitated-.-

and surprise surprise, kenneth came.

and not so big surprise, sam got pissed at me.

anyway, all the performers were AMAZING. except maybe the year 2s who sang. it was a tad bit awkward. but it was good still :)

It was a very up and down evening i would say.... We were all so high. But there were certain moments where i just wanted some people to just fuck off and leave. im sorry but it's true. And there were moments were some of us were feeling so down.

But the worst part was that my night ended with a breakdown. and i feel like an attention seeking whore for crying at the triangle at the stairs cause everyone could see me. but i didn't do it on purpose. i told myself not to but after mels and char came over i was just like ASDFGHJKL D'''''': and i swear i cry like a fucking baby. it's so embarrassing.

Well, they say crying makes you feel bettter. im sorry but it's not true. after months of sleepless nights and the many "crying it all out moments", no, it never made me feel better. it just makes me feel embarrassed and feel worst cause i realise, what did that do to help myself? how does crying solve anything? it doesn't. Which is why, i hate to cry. i hate it when i unwillingly cry. i hate crying infront of people. Sometimes when i want to cry, i just want everyone to fuck off cause if people start bugging me about it, i cry. and i hate crying. i want to just swallow it like a bitch and deal with it. i hate crying. period.

and yes. im choosing to ignore and pretend that nothing's wrong cause there's just way too much on my plate now.

Running away helps. it helped me. i convinced myself i was over K.

But well screw it, the many months of work just went down the drain all because of one night. fucking hell.

I'm confused. Everything is breaking apart. everything is crumbling down.

i really feel like dying. or just run to church. hide there. and pray.

During church today, it was my little escape. escape from reality. escape from SOTA. escape from you. escape from my feelings. and in the adoration room, i did reflection and tried to find the peace in me.

Im really glad to have those amazing people. especially Vincent, Christian and Lauren. They make me feel happy. And the little kids in Children Ministry. The little boy who held my hand on the way down the stairs really made my day. That innocence. It's so precious. He made me feel like for a moment, life could be that simple. Only if it were true. if only i could run away from all the problems. drop them all like a fly. ignore it and continue with my life as if nothing happened. Only if that were possible. i would kill for that right now. or maybe a time machine would be good too.

sorry this post got kinda depressing towards the end :\

♥

dinner at the black sheep

2011-07-29T06:31:00.001-07:00

Dinner time now!:)
Food is amazing here. A must to come back to.

♥
R

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snapple

2011-07-28T08:54:00.001-07:00

A snapple a day keeps the doctor away.

♥
R

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Someday Somehow.

2011-07-28T07:43:00.000-07:00

Hey Hey! :)

Was going to do this post in school but the connection failed so go figure.

Was taking a break from doing physics revision with my babe, Lyn ♥ well she was watching a movie. but it's still classified under the category of "studying" :)

I think i look ugly with spectacles on but these are the only pair that i've ever worn that makes me look in between ugly and decent :) so, YAY! yeah i mean it's a classic and classics can't go wrong. unless you're just wrong in general. that'll just suck :| But everyone's Beautiful in their own way ♥ *cheesy moment*

I'm pretty determined to get all my academic marks improved. including math. somehow i'll find the will to open my textbook and do some sums. As for my music, i'll try my best but i don't intend to ace it. i know where i stand. sadly, it's at the bottom.... so much for being in an Arts school... i really want to just give it all up. i'm seriously considering taking double science and drop my art form. It's stupid, i know. But what to do? I am losing my passion and the determination. Sadly. Speaking of music, i've sort of finished my music essay. And look at the number of times i listened to the song.

122 times

crazy. and when i started the essay, i only listened to it maybe about 10+ times. And by right it would be more than 122 times because i replay the song in the middle to do the analysis for the essay. sucks to be a music student i guess? well it wouldn't suck if i actually enjoyed this. well i love this song but after doing this essay, i don't really fancy it as much now. great. -.- i guess im really not that into this whole idea of "musician". I want to have fun with the music. i want to experiment with my trombone. play things i like. have fun. screw the theory part and history and all the analysis. i don't want that. yeah sure it helps me appreciate the piece im playing even more. but i don't want that. call me lazy and not motivated, but that's me. i like to be free. to do things the way i would enjoy doing it. screw the whole idea of knowing more to music and being able to appreciate it. i would know if i appreciate it or not. I like it, i appreciate it. I don't like it, i dont appreciate it. reasons why? WHO CARES!?

well i guess this is just me. cause im not the girl who intends to be a hardcore musican when i grow up. so maybe im so against this whole thing. sadly. sometimes i wonder why im even in SOTA. where's that thing that pushed me when i first started off? i lost it. lost my passion. but that's impossible.

On a lighter and better note, I JOINED THE MAYDAY PARADE STREET TEAM!!! ALL MAYDAY PARADE FANS, YOU BETTER JOIN. Do add me as a buddy when you join, i am RachaelCeline! :)

Mayday Parade ♥
Love the new song Oh Well Oh Well. It's so awesome. everyone NEEDS to listen to it. if you haven't GO. NOW.

alright, it's 11:04pm. im going to sleep. will post more tomorrow

♥

(ps. don't be an idiot like me. keep pushing on.)

(pps. oh and you, THANKS FOR NOTHING KISS MY ASS)

personal

2011-07-26T09:00:00.000-07:00

Ek wilnou vriende met jou. Ek is regtig nie. Ek wil haar te wees sJá bych opravdu rád. Opravdu opravdu. I wilnou se svými přáteli. Jsem opravdu ne. Chci, aby se jako. vždy jít za ní.Vždycky chcete pověsit s ní. Nechci se měnit, kdo jsem. ale nemáte houvan, kdo jsem. Forse potrei avere una possibilità. ma che cazzo io sono uno scherzo. joufokken rispondere a suo posto muro, ma niereplymio.. Hun indlæg hendes timer efter mig.alvorligt!? du nødt til at gøre det så klart, at du ikke ønsker at tale med mig? så hvorfor gider likign status i første omgang?Hvorfor tale med mig, som om du skide pleje. Hvorfor fortælle mig, at du er bekymret. Hvorfor fortælle mig, at dubehandler mig rigtig godt. gå hen og dø tæve. Jeg hader dig.Jeg hader dig Jeg hader dig Jeg hader mig. Jeg hader, at jeg tror, jeg måske bare begynde at have et crush på dig.kneppe mig. I dont vil. Jeg har stadig som Sam. I dont ønsker at være snyd Sams følelser. hvadhelvetti la. Kuka minä olen tosissasi. Tiedän dont halua samenää. im just niin tottunut häneen. käyttää hänelle väärinminua. käyttää hänelle työntää minua ympäri. käyttäähänelle tekee minut tekemään asioita hänelle. käyttää hänenloukkaavaa sanaa. käyttää mitä Hän tekee minulle, että minä vihaan niin paljon. Olen muuttunut niin uch hänen takiaan.Miksi minä edes kuulu hänelle. Ehkä minun ei pitäisi päästä lähelle häntä. aiheuttaa, jos olenlanfè la. ki m 'plèzantri. Mwen konnen mwen Dont vle samankò. im jis pou yo itilize l '. itilize l 'abize m'. itilize l 'pousem' alantou. itilize l 'fè m' fè bagay sa yo pou l '. sèvi ak mo abil 'yo. sèvi ak tout bagay li fè sa ki fè m 'pou m' rayi anpil.mwen chanje konsa uch paske nan l '. Poukisa mwen menmtonbe pou l '. Petèt mwen pa ta dwe pran tou pre l '. lakòz si mwen

Because i don't want to be judge but this is the only place i've got.

Sorry readers. i'll be back to my normal posting self soon.

♥